When I selected this card, I thought I was going to cry. It was something I needed to hear with what I have been going thru lately. I have been feeling worrisome and discouraged. I often let life fill my mind and push aside the Truth that I know and that is that God is my help and that I need to cling to Him more than ever. The first three months of 2008 has been great and difficult as well….from my daughter moving in to my whole family being sick now for the third time this year to my grandmother passing along with the starting of a new job has drained me of all that I have as a human being and sad to say I failed to seek Him in some of it. I am trying to catch my breath and trying to get well again while finishing up a class that seemed like it lasted longer than it did.
While I know God was with me thru it all and did so much during that time that I might not recognize I know He got me thru it because way back in January I was probably out of steam. I am now, thankfully at a pit stop and trying to do some repair and changing out of parts if I can to take on the next three months.
So Lord, please help me get rejuvenated, repaired, replenished and refreshed. May I cling to You always and know you lift me up thru it all.
I thought this next card I picked (at random) I thought was so fitting for my current state of mind. I need to be redeemed from my struggles that plague me. I have been having some talks with God lately and have come to know that I wasn’t inline with him. I got away from not because I didn’t want the relationship with him but because I got so busy in my mind that I felt far away from him. With taking on the new role of parent and helping our daughter adjust to her new home had me preoccupied that I truly felt a disconnect.
I am now seeking Him again and feel refreshed and focused.
My reaction to pulling this card was “Yes, this so what I want and surely need.”
Test me, O’ Lord, and try me, Examine my heart and my mind; for Your love is ever before me, and I desire to walk continually in Your truth.
I recently received some “Faith 40 Scripture Prayer Cards Beth Moore” this month and I have had the box on my desk and just look at it from time to time. I wanted to utilize them to help me in my walk with the Lord but I was scared of them as well. Not sure why.
So today I decided I would pick the first card, read it and make a reaction to it and pray about what it means to me. Above is the first card I pulled. And to me it is a whammy already….just the words Test me, O Lord had me quivering. That was my gut reaction to it. One never knows what God will bring them till they ask. But as I read the scripture further after I started breathing again, next came the words ‘examine my heart and my mind’. This I so desire from Him.
My year has been so turbulent and full of changes that I know I need that from God to sort of reboot me like a computer. Start over and see where I am with Him. I like the idea and prayerfully want that reflection to see where my mind and heart are at: to slow down and see what I am doing and am I going in the path of His will. Sometimes I am just going and going…..my schedule of full time student, full time worker, full time wife and mother and many other minor roles to those keeps me going and I tend not to rest and reflect with the Lord.
I want to walk with Him, it is such a desire to be what He wants me to be and I fall short even before I wake up and feel the light against my skin.